Ruby I guess in some ways you remind me of myself, the part where you talk about not having empathy I can relate to. I used to say I choose not to have empathy and I would get in big trouble .

I know what’s motivating your behavior , it’s so you can get what you want, you don’t see that your goal is wrong.

Just imagine if you put the amount of energy you put into masking into wanting to change. I find it very hard to believe that there are no community resources available. I haven’t heard you say you needed money for food and shelter . You are free to do whatever it takes to get well. You don’t sound like you have to struggle to survive.

Wouldn’t you like people to like you? I know that’s what you want .

I know I’ve tried to help you in chat before.

I’ve looked back at your posting history and see that nothing has changed , you keep having the same problems .