eh... i soooo shouldn't post this but...

I've been here long enough to start feeling like "home" and like people here were my friends. The problem with that is... the more accustomed i get to something the worse i feel about change. And well, this place changes all the time I'm not saying it shouldn't, at least i try not to say that... It's just that.. Well i just felt like "sharing"

I just can't explain this (wrote like ten sentences that didn't make any sense) ..eh.. Well, em.. I sort of start to feel like back in school. I only had few friends and I wasn't really even cabable to make more. Except as a little kid but that was different me

Aaaanywho... school.. it's the same here now, in the sense that I feel secure with these few people... then there's lots and lots of people who i just can't connect with, like i somehow had that compartment fully booked and there was room for no more.
Am I making ANY sense at all? Probably not
Anyways... yeah.. and like in school there's those few that i'm just afraid of i feel soooo guilty about it, but that's just.. äh.. makes me scared to say anything cuz i really don't want to hear any truths about myself or something.. argh..

I'll stop