okay, so basically im a pretty good student. im almost finished with my first year of high school, and everything seems great. last year, i got a letter home from my teachers saying i was selected to participate in this convention for students with potential in undergoing high society pofessions, and i couldnt go because money was so tight. eventually i got over it, but my mom called today and said i got recommended again. i was immediantly stoked, but im in the same delema. it sucks, cause i know i just cant go and pull fifteen hundred dollars out of my butt. i mean, obviously i have potential, and obviously i think i can acheive, and obviously people think i can do something with my life, but i wont ever happen. im just really upset, devastated actually. i mean, i feel like my life isnt ever going to go anywhere. i guess money is the secret to happiness. uhh.. im so beyond frustrated. im trying to look happy, for my dad. i mean, i should be proud of myself for being selected, its a big thing, but it means nothing. nothing.