Thank you all. I feel extremely seen and unisolated. I just tend to keep these thoughts to myself in fear of being called overdramatic and etc. I know too that it could potentially be because of my situational triggers, I've been feeling good after drinking warm soy milk every morning. I'm doing much better now, solid advice @MickeyCheeky, I wanted to try and be a little adventurous and choose a movie out of a list of different critically-acclaimed movies. I did not expect it to wrench my heart out. The story was utterly beautiful but my heart could not handle the ending.

Again, everyone, I hope y'all are feeling safe and loved. Thank you for this community,