i agree with the other wise and wonderfulposters that you're not a horrible person. i think it can happen to feel overwhelmed by too much constant attention. The best way would be to simply explain it to her but you've already said that she seems to get hurt. Unfortunately i am not sure if there's much else you can do. Just try to explain in the kindest possible way and let her know that you do Love her and that you want her in your Life. Perhaps suggesting some counseling may help if she's not too sensitive about that. i wish i could do more to Help. i HHope things will improve really soon for everyone. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Britedark, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!