i think the decision should be up to you since you do know them better than us i think. i suppose that the second guy may be a better option due to several things. However i don't feel too comfortable in telling you what to do. i think you should follow what you desire but also take in consideration the future. i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters that the age difference may become difficult to deal with. Definitely try to think about this. i'd say get to know at least the second guy better in Real Life and see if things seem to be working. As for the first, see if you think it is worth it to pursue a relationship. Please do remember that if you take a decision you may disappoint at least one of them either way. Don't feel guilty about that as that is just how it works i think. i Hope you will make the best possible decision for yourself and others. Stay Safe. Stay Strong. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Jellyfish18, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, Ok?!