I am very sorry to read about your experience. I had two relationships- lasting 5 years and 2 years respectively. First was a Cluster B (probably a narcissist) and second was a married man (I knew that from the start). After that I am off relationships. Single life suits me just fine. In any case this corona has screwed most of our chances at socialising. I am sending you good vibes and hoping you will meet someone decent soon. Singles parties sounds like a better option than online dating.