I’m thinking a lot about old transference T today. I just am worried I’ll run into her when I’m on vacation since she vacations there too. But I am not sure she’ll be there at the same time as me. Basically I think I’ll always be a bit screwed up that the video sessions started so suddenly in March and I only saw her twice in person before we ended in February. I honestly don’t think I’ll ever be totally 100% right in my head or at peace with how I feel about her. It’s been about 4 months and 2 weeks and some days I barely think of her other days like today it’s tough.

I guess it’s partially the vacation thing but it’s also that she was always telling me to go to the doctors for UTIs and now I have another one and I guess today I’ve just been thinking a lot of her.

But when I think of Covid 2020 I think of therapy.