You were supposed to stay until Teenage One wanted to come to you. And we were right there T. Right ****ing there. It was written down, for you to see. She wrote it down and brought it for you to see. I looked into your eyes. She looked into your eyes, and then this. And then you walk away.

I know it's five months away. I know. But it doesn't feel like that right now. The tears are here, now. The hurt is here, now. The pain is here, now.

I had a bath, it didn't help. I felt sick. I was sick.