L,
Your emails this week have touched me so deeply. They are exactly what I needed to hear. It's exactly how I feel about you minus my struggles with object constancy. I wish you weren't on vacation right now. I wish I could give you a big hug. I wish you knew how much you mean to me, and that I too choose you. Even with the object constancy struggles, I do hold you in my heart. I guess that does prove that our bond is real.

Thank you, L. Thank you for everything. I love you so much! And I appreciate and respect you too. I'm looking forward to being with you when you get back. Maybe this time will be easier. Less welcome back gitters. I'm hoping.