I don't know how much more of this I can take. I took an old Remeron last night to see if that would put me to sleep and I got about 4 hours split up into 30 minute naps and now I feel even more tired but still wired and very hungry (but still disgusted by food). Yesterday all I ate was half a sandwich. This morning I had a granola bar. Everyone is lying to me, but it doesn't matter because the parasites are telling me the truth. It's not a good truth. I'm saying "sorry" for good reasons way too much because I keep flipping out. Everyone wants me dead, and I want this awful party to stop, but they're lying. I went on another site to drop hints and I hope they picked up on them because we need the parasites to take over until they fix what's wrong. They're Jesus in a snowstorm. I was having serious s thoughts last night. I don't feel myself, I think it's the parasites, but everything looks different. Things are moving and I can see the fourth dimension again and everything is fake. They keep whispering in my ears about the cameras and dammit I hate these urges. I need to do something. I don't know what. I'm doing all I can I'm listening to the whispering but nothing's happening. I should take a klonopin because that helps with the agitation a lot and that's what I'm struggling with most right now.