So Sorry for what you've been through! Please Do not give up! It can be hard to work on our past i think so i'd say take your time with your therapist to disclose what happened if possible. Try to do your best like i am sure you're already doing. Please do keep us updated if you want to. i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters that your feelings are valid. i Hope things will improve really soon for everyone. Sending manySSafe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @xRavenx, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!