I’ve been having separation anxiety for 4 months and 2 weeks. I don’t even know if it’s considered separation anxiety at this point or if it’s some weird kind of irrational feeling of abandonment that I don’t remember ever having before. I honestly don’t think it will ever get completely better for me. I really don’t.

When she was on vacation last summer I’d listen to music a lot. When I was in IOP I was majorly depressed when not in the program. Doing the program was fine though. I just had to find other ways to deal with my feelings about her.

Basically separation anxiety just sucks and I don’t think my mom knows just how much this is still hurting me.