I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to scare anyone. I won’t post about my med situation anymore. If I have a concern about unsafe behaviors I’ll bring it up to my therapist instead of on a mental health forum.

My anxiety is the worst right now. I have no idea why. I’ve been up for more then 4 hours trying to deal with it. I just want 2 hours of sleep. I have my music but that’s about it. I just got under my 8 pound weighted blanket so I’ll see if that helps.

I have an intense fear of gaining weight and I’m obsessed with weight loss. so I guess that’s where a lot of my issues can be traced back to. Again I will mention it to my therapist. I saw her on Monday and she couldn’t fit me in for another 3 weeks. I’m not comfortable asking if she has a cancellation and anyways I’ll be gone Tuesday-Friday of next week.

I’m curious about how my anxiety and vacation will coexist. Sometimes all you need is a vacation but other times it’s just a bad distraction from your normal life problems.

I tried the weighted blanket. Now I’m just both hot and anxious. It’s about the time I usually get up. So I wonder if I should just stay up since it doesn’t look like I’ll be getting back to sleep. I opened my shades so I could watch the sunrise