I didn’t get any sleep after 11:40. I think regular melatonin gives me insomnia. I tried one as soon as I woke up and it didn’t help at all. As long as I’m not visibly crabby my mom won’t pay attention. Which is good. She’s not aware of much of anything except that I still miss my old therapist a lot. She hides my meds but doesn’t know just how depressed and anxious I’ve been. She wouldn’t send me to the hospital or anything like that. She’s always hated the hospitals. but I don’t want her to worry about me because she’s looking forward to this trip.

But I might as well just get up now since it’s my usual time.