It seems like you're working hard to build your future and that is good, but please be careful about overdoing it. i agree with the wise and wonderful Britedark that the nervous breakdowns should serve as an indication that perhaps you need some rest. Try to find a way to reduce your work hours if possible. Your mental health is important. Stay Safe. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @BigBubba, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!