Hey, I've been thinking about my past mistakes one situation in particular with a boy that I sent nude pics to years ago and he like blackmailed me and I was thinking that I probably sent those pics because I wanted him to love me. After some thought today and talking to friends I realized I probably would not have let him use me if I had actual love for myself. Its my fault I should have loved myself more and not allowed people to use me. This happened when I'm 17 but I still think about him and even miss him which I know is pretty messed up given what happened. I know that if I was stronger back than I wouldnt have been manipulated like that. I have a lot of regret and I dont want to feel like I need someone to complete me for the rest of my life because relying on anyone is gonna falter eventually. All of this thinking made me realize the psychological block I have in relationships, I can't attract anyone decent because I feel like a loser inside and it really is holding me back. My awful self esteem and value on life is making my life dismal and bleek how do I let go of my past self and my mistakes, when there everywhere I go? I feel like I'm treading water and going no where.