I’m so sorry for all on this thread and what you had to endure.

I have pretty much fully recovered from what i felt as extreme emotional pain. It was not technically abuse, it was shocking lack of love, abandonment. It sent me reeling for the past few years.

I’ll share with you what worked for me: I went through the stages of grief. Then I tried to empathize with the offenders. I’m not suggesting it is possible for you to empathize, not knowing the degree of the abuse you endured, empathy may not be warranted at all. But doing my best to look at it from their POV, and thinking about the circumstances that caused them to abandon me, helped lift that consuming weight off me.

They certainly never acknowledged or apologized to me. So my only way to move forward was to ruminate on it and eventually reframe it, feeling sorry for them that they were so messed up themselves which is why they hurt me. It helped me feel better.

I wish you healing and peace.