Dealing with depression over here. Kinda woke up this way.


This morning I cancelled a job interview I was going to have this afternoon. It was for a caregiver role. I thought I might be a good fit. But maybe I fooled myself at this time. Also there were some things about the role I was unsure about doing, and some questions I had, which I could have asked in the interview, but I decided to not go. I really hope the support people in my life are not disappointed when I tell them. I expressed to one of them that I wanted to cancel and she said she thought I should go, if only for practice. I'll practice at the next one and with her. I'm also frustrated because I *was* looking forward to it, then a friend discouraged me and was unsupportive when I told him I had an interview today. I would have gone out of spite to him, but his words got to me. As much as I care about this person, I need some time away from him. He has been saying a lot of hurtful stuff to me lately. Even if just saying it ignorantly and oblivious of how he's affecting me. I have tried to express that to him, but not well enough and I don't think it's going to really change anything if I do tell him. I've told him before. He's just not in a place to accommodate me because it happens again and again.