Little Turtle -- and feel free to ignore the question, at the time of the "breakdowns" did you have any purely medical work done to determine if some physical, endocrine, nutrient/mineral deficiency had anything to do with your internal situation?

Personal Aside: My pdoc has had me off all antidepressant medications for a few months now due to their minimal effects and worrying side effects. I am still regularly taking an antianxiety medication.