Yeah. I guess I’m just trying to make myself feel better for not feeling like I belong. I feel like I belong here but I’ve been here for 9 years haha I will only be in group until the end of the summer. It would be nice to find a support group in my area, there definitely are some, but I’m too afraid to go by myself. Years ago I went to the DBSA one near me and I just felt so anxious and awkward. I was supposed to meet someone there but he never showed and I went in because it had been a 30 minute drive.

I think nami has groups in my area but again I don’t know if I could bring myself to attend.

I almost feel like…arrogant for assuming no one else feels the way I do. Like of course there are people who have the same issues as me. I feel like I’m too far out there with my 20+ hospitalizations and tendency to err on the side of mild to severe psychosis at times. But there MUST be other people in the group who have that background or at least something I can relate to. I’m just so used to shutting everyone out.