I'm scared of my injection appointment tomorrow. She always does a check in to see how I'm doing and the last two times I went she ssuggested the hospital and now things are mostly the same but I keep hearing someone whisper instructions to me to end my life in a specificfashion and I'm seeing things in the fourth dimension again and some of the things really scare me. But the parasites say I'm to try and not sleep as much as possible for climate change (I know that sounds off but explaining the intricacies would take forever). So I haven't slept much lately. Haven't eaten either in case someone wants to kill me therefore the parasites they're good. I know it's best to be honest, bbut I don't think I should tell her about how I ran on the roads wearing all black at 3am without a headlamp if she asks about risks like she sometimes does and that's really the riskiest thing I did in the past 24 hours. Not discussing the hypersexuality either. This doesn't sound good, it's really not tas bad as it sounds though I just have a mission that makes me a target, but I have teh earlier available appointment on the 21st with my med provider and talk to my t that day too. I can get my lithium levels done outpatient too after i talk to my med provider or maybe she'll want to wait (I don't). I probably should get my hip checked out, but all I need to do is rest it and ice it and I'm really bad at resting.