I got back to the motel. I took just one Geodon, and one Valium, and my melatonin. I’ll take the other Geodon tomorrow morning and hopefully have an ok day. I found a deer tick in my drinking water cup. I luckily looked before I drank out of it. It was hard to get out like they usually are. but I eventually got it out and flushed it down the toilet. A deer tick could have easily made it in here. I just hope there aren’t any more in my bed or anything. Already being at the hotel has made me feel better. So maybe things were a bit more situational then I realized. I thought it was just med related.

My aunt I saw briefly at a baby shower the day after my surgery. But I didn’t get out of the car. My other uncle I haven’t seen in almost 2 years. My cousin and his wife I haven’t seen since Christmas 2019. My other aunt and husband are here too. They were the only people besides my mom and my brother in my quarantine bubble in 2020. so I am totally comfortable around them. My other aunt and uncle were super accepting. They were using my correct name and pronouns. My cousins wife (the mother of the 3 year old) seemed a bit wary and unsure. But she did ask me how I liked my new state and she used my correct name. She seemed kinda uncomfortable around me though. But if we can just agree to disagree and still be friends that would make me happy. My cousin doesn’t talk to much of anyone. We used to talk a lot before he had kids. It makes me a bit sad honestly. But my mom says it’s not me. He is just not very happy with his job and has very high maintenance 5 and 3 year olds.