I have been stressed all day. I’m not in a very friendly state so I’ve been avoiding the public restrooms. They did have a unisex bathroom in addition to a men and women’s which I feel like was just a way to cover their asses. They don’t have unisex bathrooms in my friendly state. I didn’t use it because I didn’t want to draw attention to myself. Then I was slightly uncomfortable at the beach. I didn’t want to swim because if I took my shirt off, my top scars are clearly visible and it would probably also be too much for my family. But then I was thinking what would people think of a smallish scrawny dude wearing a shirt in the lake with swim trunks? Could they tell by that way? I’ll have to figure out if I want to go swimming at all. But it will for sure be with a shirt.

I also had a lot of other anxiety. Situational and med related. There’s a time difference here but it’s not making things too screwy. Only the trip here was confusing.