I’m feeling great today. I did end up taking both Geodon last night. But I haven’t had any Valium today and I don’t feel the need to take one. I feel great at the lake town. This is the most relaxed and not anxious I’ve been in 2 months. I just had to get used to being here. I also slept good. My mom and I have mostly been off by ourselves because we wanted to give our family time to themselves. My aunt and her husband got married a month ago. So my mom and I got coffee, the hotel doesn’t serve breakfast anymore. Then we said hello to my family before we walked downtown. I got a black and red flannel shirt with the state I’m in right now on the right corner. I also got a hoodie I wanted that has the towns name on it. I saw a guy at the lake yesterday wearing it and It was really cool and I wanted to get one. I also got a lot of candy from a candy shop. I got some chocolate necco wafers and a bag of taffy including buttered popcorn flavor. I got some astronaut ice cream too. Then my mom and I stopped for lunch and got mini Cesar shrimp salads. The mini size was still huge and the shrimp were huge too. I’m still not very hungry but I am eating today unlike yesterday. We’re going to the beach later this afternoon. I’m sitting In the house my aunt is renting just sitting outside in the sun.

But yeah once I got used to my family and stuff and slept well I felt great.

I walked into the coffee shop this morning and the cashier was giving me a curious look. I couldn’t tell if she was trans or if he was just starting to transition or maybe just non binary. But I was ok with the look she gave me. Usually I feel intimidated when people look at me but her or his or they look was completely fine and he was really nice.