I am sad today - for she is back - I have not heard from her in well over a year....... my life gets turned upside down when this alter is present as she is so unsettled and filled with lots of fear, doubt, hurt and negative wonder - I find it hard to stay sane when she active with in me...... and I fear - for it was she that wanted to die all those years back.

What is going on here - As I thought she was gone or at least satisfied enough to let me have complete control since we (I) have not heard from nor felt her presence with in the last year of my life.

*Big Sigh*

*Really Big Sigh*