Kessa, that is a real, and common fear. Do talk about this with your T... because it can hinder your healing. I think you will find that it's ok to get better, and that you can always rely upon the sources you have now, even when you do, if you need to!

When you get better, you can make those decisions better for yourself too. You won't be forced into having to do this or that if you still don't wish to. Healing doesn't require anything else ... it just needs you to find it.