Feeling sad this morning. Yesterday, my pdoc encouraged me to reach out to my son’s dad. It’s been two months since my son cut off contact, and she and I believe the loss is a huge part of my depression. She wanted me to ask my ex to ask my son if I could text him once a week if I said I wouldn’t mention the events of last summer. His dad emailed me back saying he would do it, but that my son 100% chose to do that on his own. I’m not allowing myself to hope too much. Another rejection will be too much pain. My anxiety is moderate today. I went to my cousin’s house to print some resources from DBSA, but I couldn’t get the printer to work. Oh well. I’m just so sad. I’m close to my cousin and her daughter, but I can’t talk about this stuff with them because it upsets them. My cousin gets upset when I cry. I just feel so alone.