I hate eating in front of people. It’s one of my things. I can eat in front of my mom and at restaurants in front of strangers but not with my family. I don’t get it because they are the people who will not judge me. I have this weird issue with utensils and I prefer finger foods because I find the utensils awkward except for spoons. unless I can stab my fork into stuff and eat it barbaric style. I eat pasta super gross but I can’t twirl it and cutting it is hard. It’s just a sensory thing more then an eating thing. So if my restaurant food is too difficult to eat I just bring it home so I can eat it my way in private. So I think it’s more an autism thing.

Today I ate a large ice cream cone. It freaked me out a bit. But I ordered a small and I just tried ignoring the calories.

I didn’t go out to dinner for many reasons and I put all my snacks in the car. The only thing I have is a bottle of Mountain Dew baja blast zero in the fridge.

I don’t know if my family thinks it’s weird that I don’t eat in front of them. But I do eat.