This will be long so dont feel bad if you skip this mess.

Current list of medications for physical health.

Xeljanz 5mg BID for Psoriasis and PsA
Fosamax weekly, osteoporosis
Cyclobenzaprine 10mg BID muscle relaxer
Baclofen 10mg QID muscle relaxer.
Atorvastatin 40mg QD
Metoprol 25mg BID for Tachycardia
Glipizide 5mg BID
Lyrica 150mg BID
Symbicort 160/4.5 BID
Pro Air rescue inhaler as needed.
ASA 81mg QD

List of health problems. Asthma, Bipolar I, High Cholesterol, PsA, Fibromyalgia, Diabetic type II, Chronic insomnia, Spinal Stenosis ( as for my Xanax its not just for anxiety it does help with my chronic pain conditions)

Psych meds
Doxepin 100mg QHS for sleep mostly useless
Lamictal 300 mg ER QHS
Xanax 1mg TID
Ambien 10mg PRN seldom works.

Below are psych meds that I have tried and they did nothing or side effects intolerable.. Also marked with BS if its a med that will increase since I am diabetic and cant take.

Risperdal increase prolactin, increase BS mild Akathisia
Zyprexa increase BS, constant hunger and anxiety
Seroquil EX or straight, again BS
Abilify massive Akathisia cogentin zero help
Invega increase BS and zoning out, even while driving, drooling
Depakote no help, likely reason I kept falling
Fanapt, Brain zaps, Akathisia and increase BS
Triliptal SJS at day 7
Lithium. Never again, toxic once.
Topamax. Akathisia
Remoron useless
Saphris Asthma attack
Trintellix increase BS
Rexulti increase BS
Haldol Akathisia, needed Cogentin and Inderal to take, Blurry vision
Thorazine Akathesia needed Cogentin and Inderal to take, Burry vision.

Restoril useless
Trazodone took 450mg QHS for sleep no help
Ambien more than 2 days and I get no sleep
Visteral urinary retention

Buspar for 2 months no help at all
Gabapentin. Can not take as I am on Lyrica
Inderal unable to take because of Metoprol

Im sure I have missed some.
As many of you know there is huge stress with Steves health

The NP will be taking me off Xanax, So my anxiety will be horrific, My pain will become dangerous ( self harm) and I will go back to not sleeping for days.. I can go from a couple days to my longest at 8 days. ( yes no rational thoughts) most nights I am lucky to get 3-4 hours, often broken.

My GP can no longer write scripts for any benzos or pain meds. I was sent to a Pain clinic and they will do nothing for Fibro pain( many Doctors dont believe its real)

Marijuana is not legal in my state at all. CBD oil does nothing

Sooooo yeah

I'm really out of options.