this was a journal entry from a vacation i went on. i was going to put it up as soon as possible, but i never had time, so im going to now.
4-24-08
"Everything just seems to be going wrong. Everything I do is critisized. I've had the most horrible last few weeks than I have in my whole life. My paretns don't think they can trust me anymore. My friends seem to be getting into more fights with each other.

I can't shake this empty and depressed feeling inside me. I can't even describe in words how it feels, but i can say it is jsut simply aweful. I've only felt this bad once before about a year ago, but it didn't last this long. It seems evertime I start feeling a little better, my stomach starts to churn and that same, horrible feeling comes back to me.

I jsut feel the need to die. I want to go to sleep and wake up somewhere else, somewhere better. Maybe not even at all. I dread speaking to my parents because I am constantly thinking they have something planned for me. (and not in a good way) I just want them to let me live my life, accept me for who I am and not pry into my life so much. They say they're just being good parents, but sometimes I just need my space.

(i will type more later)