I woke up wide awake at 2:40. In a motel room with my mom who was sound asleep. Luckily I have noise canceling wireless headphones and an app on my phone with international versions of my favorite TV show. I watched about 3 hour long episodes before she woke up. Then we pretty much left immediately after my mom got up. We didn’t take showers. Just packed up and left the keys on the table and got out. We stopped at a couple stores and the gas station and the coffee shop. Then we got on the road. I sat in the backseat and I turned on my TV show again and I watched about 3.5 episodes of the same show. I was so involved in my show I didn’t pay attention to the bad driving weather and I lost track of the whole 3.5 hours back.

Then we got home around 11 and I decided to go to immediate care to get my foot checked out. I knew it was Friday and today is also 10 days before my period and Saturdays (the 9th day before I get it) are always the worst of the 10 days. So I didn’t want an issue like I had last month where I ended up in the ER because I thought I was having a heart attack which turned out to be just bad post op pain and anxiety.

So I found an immediate care and I got in right away. The doctor said the thing on my foot was really interesting. She says since it’s been there for 2 months and it doesn’t hurt she thinks it’s just a blood blister. But she says the size is concerning so she took pictures and sent a referral over to their dermatologist office. So I have an appointment there next Friday.

But I swear there’s always something going on when I PMS. Now I have to try not to worry for a week until my appointment. I have socks on now so I don’t have to look at it.

But so far I’m not having any bad S or SH thoughts the way I usually do when I PMS. Again things aren’t bad until the 9th day before I get my period. Which is always on Saturdays. So far I’m just incredibly exhausted from being up for so long and just tired from my vacation in general. I can’t think much about anything. I don’t even want to watch more TV.

But my Valium are working and my overall moods and anxiety are better then they were a couple weeks ago. So maybe going back down on both my Geodon and my lamictal is making a legit difference. I went up on my Geodon in January I think and I was miserable ever since.