I can empathise with you, I, too, have similar views having been sexually assaulted at work 4 yrs. ago, and suffered a massive nervous breakdown since, to the point that now I am petrified to leave my home. I must say that publishing my resultant poetry on the web has been good therapy. I'm politely suggesting you have a look at my poems as they say similar things to your comments.
Log-in to my blog at: http://john4.psychcentral.net/wp (I'm new to this site so I'm literally just finding my way around).
wishing you well . . .