***TRIGGERING***
Thanks to you, You have helped me just by reading,your questions, advice, ideas, opinions in your posts. So much I have been SI free for ~ 5 months! Well, Wed. night came, & I received sister's attitude, maybe ingested is a better word she can be & was arrogrant & I got caught up in the Drama- Big Mistake!I was cursed out, made fun of, it was rotten. What happened to all those DBT Skills I've been studying for 2 1/2 yrs. now? The ones "no judgment, show no reaction, detach?? IDK. I was blinded I was so angry. I don't treat ppl. poorly, my neighbor - I cleaned out her gutters (I'm a female - so I'm not used to this kind of job) I asked her "What do you want me to do with all the dirt & leaves?" Yep you can guess her response. And it wasn't "Hey Thanks!" After 3 hrs.on a roof! What is the proper response to these people???? Please tell me??? IDK. I don't have a problem with the content, but the WAY they talk to me,I feel worthless. Soooo I came in and let's just say I ended my 5 month record, & won't be wearing this year's in style crop pants & definitely no shorts this summmer, lol. Last night I thought I'm supposed to show No emotions, no feelings, ahh I get it. Something funny my Mom started me in Therapy bc I never cried (when my father beat the H*ll out of me)so he would beat me harder & longer)but nothing, still no crying, no emotion - nothing. T called (1 hr ago) I acted with detachment, no feelings, he was happy - so I think I get it.Maybe I'll start signing off as Spock, lol. Sure would appreciate your advice,opinions & any ideas you may have. Thanks for listening.