I’m going to call around next week so I can set up an appointment with a gynecologist. Last night was bad. I took my usual night stuff and I found a muscle relaxer so I took that too. I got so tired and dizzy. My mom brought pizza home for dinner. I had taken my meds around 5:30. But she brought the pizza home at 6 and I was like stumbling into the kitchen. I was having. Trouble getting the pizza out of the box. So my mom helped me. Then I took it into my room and I was having a physically hard time holding the pizza and I dropped it twice on my shirt. Sauce side down. Then when I was done I instantly fell asleep until 11:45. I got up to try to get something to eat and I was so stumbly. I walked into a wall. I drank a caffeine free soda and then I fell back asleep again until 10 minutes ago. Which isn’t a bad time. The sun will be starting to rise in half an hour and if I were working I’d have to get up at this time.

But the muscle relaxers are now gone and I can’t get another refill

I emailed my therapist and she doesn’t have any openings for next week but she put me on her list and asked if I tried any meditation breathing or coloring. She seemed happy to hear from me though. She said hi moubtaindewed! With the excalamation mark. I mentioned my roid rage from not having my shot yet so I think she knew her she was talking to. I don’t think she has any other trans clients because she didn’t understand what top surgery was until I explained it. She didn’t respond to my email responding to hers though.

I hope these next 9 days aren’t as bad as yesterday afternoon or night. I got my shot yesterday around 3:30. So I’m hoping tonight isn’t like the other Saturday nights the 9th day before my period. My shots used to be Saturday mornings which is why Saturday nights are so bad.. But now that I realize it that just means Friday nights are now the bad night.