So Sorry! Please Do not give up! It seems like you were still able to give the talk based on your post and even though it may not have been perfect i think you tried and i'd say that is what matters. You were catched by surprise i think overall. Hugs. Try not to be hard on yourself. i think trying not to think about it is a good idea partly. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @mssweatypalms, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!