Today I’m doing ok. I’m a bit anxious but it’s not bad. It’s not like my usual PMDD. It’s actually pretty unusual. Maybe the increase in meds was playing a lot more into things then I realized. My Geodon was raised in January and this whole year has been nonstop anxiety and mood swings. Now I feel kind of better. Although I’m forgetting to eat today and I keep getting distracted. I had a soda at midnight or something but since then it’s just been unsweetened flavor iced teas or zero sugar sodas. I’m not restricting today I’m just super distracted for some reason.

Edit: I still haven’t eaten because I’m too tired to make anything and all I have is snacks and just ramen that needs to be cooked and I’m too lazy to even make ramen. So I just took 2 Valium at one time because I think it’s my anxiety but it’s actually just hunger masking itself as anxiety. Since I can’t ever tell the 2 apart. So now I’m trying to get up the energy to grab a snack so I’ll have the energy to then eat an actual meal. But I don’t know how sedating the Valium will make me.

I know basically my world is just ****ed.

Edit again: I ate some popcorn and some Quest protein peanut butter cups. Now I just want to take a nap because the Valium is kicking in.