I just wish I could wave a magic wand over the memories I felt made fun of and the times I would get comments that i was selfish. The times I was bored out of my mind, and wanted to have fun and couldn't. My adult life hasn't been so great. I remember little that is pleasant. What happens if you don't have very many fond memories? I guess you tend to rehash all the bad ones. These memories of being called selfish online on another forum and by several distant relatives, even some in my immediate family made me seriously question why the hell I was here for. It's like I wasn't put here for a great plan at all. Part of me would like to kind of throw away my youthful years. am sorry to say. I feel like I want to hate that young girl I was. I'll never be so young ever again. What's the point?