Bebop, how can my marriage NOT be over?!! Our relationship was never based on honesty (he told me all the things I wanted to hear for seven months during our long distance relationship - all the truths started to come out a year after we were together), abondoned me all the times I need him the most (during difficult pregnancies, miscarriages and Endometriosis), stopped communicating and turned to "cyber flings" to share his thoughts with and took me for granted over and over (at times even treating me like "the help").

There is so little to hold on to. There's no trust. I can't tell the lies from the truth. He says all the right things, but his actions speak otherwise. He'll start counselling with great enthusiasm, but a week or two later (now), it starts becoming less and less important. His wants and needs have always come first, even now when he has cut me to my very soul again.

He says he wants to change, he wants to make me happy. He says I deserve better...I've heard it all before. How many times do I have to put myself through the same cycle? He's already hurt me so much.