I took a 4th Valium because I am still feeling sick. I tried eating some soup. I don’t know. Maybe it’s all the Valium making me sick today.

I did hear that some states are sending mental health workers to peoples houses instead of the cops when they are having a mental health crisis. While that is good news I wonder if therapists will be even more tempted to call 911 on their clients.

When I was in one treatment center they always called the mental health counselor and the hospital to arrange things. Then my mom would pick me up since I’d behave for her and she’d take me to the hospital. Even from the ER one time they let her take me. That was in 2006 and that would probably be a liability now.

And the second place the mental health counselor would come to the center and then an ambulance would take me to the hospital. Except for one time when the cops took me to the ER. But they weren’t mean or anything. Then a staff from a treatment center met me there until the mental health worker came and talked to me and set things up.

The last time in 2015 I was 22 and living at home and my mom drove me to the ER and I waited with her all day until a counselor talked to me and then made arrangements.

Man what is with these traumatizing memories flying nonstop through my brain today.

That last one was Involuntary but just based on my states laws. I didn’t need to be there based on what the counselor told me but I was required by law to go. I was only there for 3 nights and like 2 full days. I think it was just one of those 36 or 48 hour holds type things. I didn’t even do most of the groups I just slept most of the time since my meds were messed up. I don’t know if all adult psych wards just want you to be safe and they don’t care if you sleep and don’t do groups, but this hospital was like this and would have been my second choice to go back to if I was living in the state again.