So Sorry for what is going on! Please Do not give up! i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters about contacting a therapist if possible. i don't think you're doing anything wrong by putting up some boundaries. Hugs. i Hope things will improve really soon and that you will be able to solve everything that is going on in your Life. Stay Safe. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @black-roses, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!