At this exact moment I feel ok. But I just took 2 Valium at once 15 minutes ago. Before I was pretty anxious. I’m not doing anything today but my sister is coming over with the kids. I tried going to baskin Robbins because it’s national ice cream day and it said online that if you buy $10 worth of stuff you’ll get free kinetic sand. So I waited in the drive thru line for 10 minutes and of course the employees had no idea what I was talking about. So I just got a $3 iced tea.

But last night I slept under 20 pounds of weighted blankets for 10 hours. I only ate about 500 calories yesterday. Today I ate a piece of pizza and some satellite wafers. I don’t really like those things but I like the texture so I guess it’s just a sensory food. They are really hard to find and I got them on my trip at a candy shop. Bed Bath And Beyond used to have them when they had their World Market food section. But they got rid of that section of the store.

So yeah right now I feel ok. Last night was rough and I had some thoughts but I just took my melatonin and my Geodons and went right to bed. My weighted blankets helped a ton.