I used to masturbate like once a month and I felt so disgusted with myself afterwards and I’d feel weird often all the next day. One time I went 3 months without doing it. I would never do it after a good day. It always had to be when I already felt crappy. Then my hormones got out of whack after starting T March 2020 and my libido got out of control. I suddenly went from once a month to 3 times a day. It was pretty out of control since I had to stop in the middle of what I was doing to go to my room when I got urges. Then things calmed down after I switched my shots to weekly instead of biweekly and I’m down to once at night but If I’m super tired I won’t do it. I’ve heard that masturbating can be a form of self care. I know my anxiety gets instantly better the second I’m done even if it was out of control all day. I try not to use porn because that does make me feel gross. I can usually get off by using a lot of lube and reading posts on a forum I’m on.

Has anyone heard this before? About it being a form of self care?

My therapist was the one who helped me through all this last summer and she was the one who told me about lubes and stuff since I had no idea what it was before. She was a lifesaver last summer since she asked me first about masturbating and I knew she was a safe person to talk to.