Turns out I was severely anemic. I was given a blood transfusion, which helped a lot. They kept me 5 nights. Did some tests. I have to go for more. Doctors think I'm losing blood in my gut somewhere. They couldn't find where.

That transfusion helped a ton. But I am still weak and light-headed when I stand up. I live alone now, since my boyfriend died last year. I had been coping with the loss fairly well. But now it all seems too much.

At least when I felt reasonably healthy, I was getting things done. Now I can't keep up with normal, daily activities. Grief, depression, fatigue and soreness are piled up. People used to tell me I was a strong person. I'm not.