Ruby, you are regressing again. Please address this in your therapy. You are an adult, not a baby or a child. That's nice that they are accommodating you at work, but they should not have to - you get upset because of an obsession over a boss who chooses to not engage with you anymore because of your obsession. And now, you're obsessed with winning back his attention. Please address your obsessiveness in your therapy. It's your greatest downfall.