Today I’m trying to deal with my anxiety. At this moment it’s not bad. My therapist emailed me around 8:30 and said she has an opening for tomorrow at 11 and asked if I wanted it. So I said “heck yeah” now I just hope she doesn’t give me a hard time about the med or food situation when I spill my guts to her. Last time I was talking and she was being silent for most of the time after she asked questions. She didn’t try to contradict me or say anything judgmental. She just let me ramble. I think it’s a therapy technique. Same sort of one where the therapist stares so intensely into your eyes you either freak out or get aroused. But it’s just some type of mirroring thing they do to get you to open up. I’m not sure what she’ll say, since I don’t know her yet, when I tell her these things. But they need to be said. I need to talk to an actual mental health care worker.

I mean, can she send me IP for the way I’ve been misusing my meds and restricting food? This is a legit question.

On a related note I want Jimmy Johns for lunch but my mom is going someplace that hasn’t opened yet. So it will be at least another hour before I can place my order online. I guess I’ll go eat my go to Goldfish crackers.

I’m wearing my weighted vest and I’ve been wearing it for awhile and it’s starting to bug me. But my anxiety is better after using it. It’s only 4 pounds but that is about all that my frame can handle.