I had a dream/nightmare about my mother because of this post. She would always make me go take a shower in my dad's bathroom downstairs that tiles falling off the wall. I dreamt that she broke into the bathroom, which she often did, and refused to allow me to take a shower. She even removed the shower curtains and the towels in my dream. She would let my brother use her shower but not me. My mother would also make fun of my "large" breasts, when I was like 12. Large according to her, she was so flat she looked androgynous and she was proud of it. I don't speak to my mother these days, not because I have her blocked or anything like that, but because I have nothing to say to her. The harder thing is when other people think its just a matter of fixing the relationship. I don't have time for people like that. So yes, I can relate.