My anxiety has been off and on all day. But it’s been better then usual. I went to Target which made me a bit nervous. And I’ve had all 3 of my Valium but I haven’t had to double up at all. My therapist was able to fit me in for tomorrow which I’m really grateful for. Then I got a gynecologist this afternoon and an appointment on Wednesday so I can deal with this hysterectomy issue that according to other ftm people saved their mental health. I had my weighted vest on earlier for about an hour. Then I took it off for a few hours and now I’m wearing it and using my burrito blanket and I feel better. I also had half my night meds including my 3rd Valium.

So I guess the therapy session, the Valium, the weighted vest, and getting the doctors set up made my anxiety more manageable then it normally is. Also the increase in Geodon and lamictal were really ****ing with me. Especially the increase in lamictal. I’m glad I went down on it. I should be PMSing right now but this is the most mild PMS I’ve had all year.

I also just now got a new primary who can prescribe my injections. I see him on Thursday. Now I feel like I have an actual support team.