Not sure you can tell or maybe its clear,not really sure, but have been so dissociative lately. Making appointments and cant remember where or when, wrote it down and no idea where. I tell you things and apparently, I have told you before. I was writing an email to you the other day, which I did not send come morning when i read it. I had said that I'm dissociating a lot lately, and feel very strange, like I hear and see things that are not really there. First, why would I say that, when I m not sure its true. Like I would know right? And yet just did not feel it was right to send to you. I feel old ways creeping in. Insomnia worse. For instance did not sleep last night. been up all yesterday and so far all day today. I can hear you asking to check in and see who it is, but its never quite like that, is it? I mean if it was wouldn't it be easy to cure. I feel that in any one issue, the solution is not always so clear because of the pile of issues that its all connected to.

And why when I hear Amy Lee's voice, I really miss you. Whatever!