Drinking what? If it’s alcohol, then no. If it’s from the bottle, then not yet. I’m finding it difficult to get it into the baby lifestyle because my family REFUSES to support me on that. I’m stuck merely watching YouTube videos and envying all the adult babies in it.

I don’t even LIKE having to make this choice (of adult babyhood). My depression is just so overwhelming I don’t know how else to cope. When the Arby’s incident happened, I tried drinking and getting really wasted. It didn’t help so I stopped.

I’m doing my best with what I got. I’m calmer at work now and more clear headed. I actually enjoy doing my job now. But the hole in my heart…